Weekends are usually hard for me in certain aspects. Prime example? I've started this post about 18 times because I don't know which direction I want it to go. I have a million thoughts rolling around in my head, with no idea which way to go... so, I'm just going to write. I apologize ahead of time if this post is everywhere... after all, that's essentially how my brain works.
I have a love-hate relationship with weekends. I love them because I find immense joy getting up early int he morning while Nate and Ella (and sometimes Carson when he's here) are still asleep and I can have my morning pop (shut up, don't judge) after I take my meds, and I can let my creativity flow. Mornings, when I'm not pressured are my most productive time. That's when my creative side is at its best. That first hour or so is absolutely glorious. Then, well, then all hell breaks loose as soon as either someone wakes up, or my productive/creative side decides it's had enough. Whichever comes first.
I love dreaming up new ideas of ways to do things... new adventures I can go on... new projects I could play around with in Photoshop or Illustrator... new things I can create with my camera... new business adventures I could maybe go down... new ways to budget our money... new ways and things to use in my planner... new ways I can figure out how to keep up with stuff around the house... just really, all sorts of new and exciting things. My mind races at the thought of "What can I think up next?"
I can't tell you how many times I've created new blogs, gone down new business adventures, spent oodles of money on getting things set up and ready to go, ordered all sorts of stuff... only to get bored with it, or not know which direction to go, or not want to burden anyone with selling or offering services or what not. I have SO MUCH TROUBLE finishing something once I've started it. My brain just doesn't work that way, and it truly drives me crazy.
In a way to search for answers, I decided I would take one of those MBTI personality tests online. I didn't take the real test, but I've taken many online and I consistently get the same result.
I am an INFP-T.
Some of you are lost, I know, but those that know what I'm talking about, will understand.
I've done some significant research on the average INFP and the stuff I've come across is alarming at how close it hits to home.
More on the whole INFP stuff another time. It's so so so very interesting!! If you clicked on those links, you'd understand a bit about my personality and why I operate the way I do.
I'm not going to lie, it sucks being all over the place. I know everyone has their own struggles, but it's so damn hard to stay focused some days, and to actually get something done.
See, this post was EVERYWHERE, with no closure whatsoever.
And I guess, that's okay... it's me, it's how I roll.
Happy Sunday, Friends!
Go Packers!
-Krystle
I don't know what it says about me that my results change... drastically... every time I take the test. Honestly, I don't know how I function at all because I'm either crazy driven and successful or I'm hot mess express. There isn't an inbetween really. It's the worst. Currently I'm on hot mess express on the side of the road- I'm not even moving. LOL.
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